Do I really want to blog?

I got excited for about 2 days... hence my previous post and thought I was going to be an avid blogger, posting my thoughts for the world to see. Then I had second thoughts and decided I would keep the thoughts and desires of my heart under lock and key in my journal. Well now I'm back- we'll see how long it lasts this time!
Something that I have witnessed in a lot of my single friends' lives lately, is the loneliness and aching for a man to fill this void. In college I dated the man that at the time I thought I would marry. Well had I only dug deeper into my heart I would have realized that we were not right for each other. I loved him, but I know now that it was not true love and it was not loved based on Godly principles. After breaking up with him I went through various stages to find happiness. I learned a lot about myself, learned to be independent again, and my journey brought me back to a life to live to honor A lot of my friends have gotten married in the past few years and I just hope and pray that their marriages is based on strong fundamentals and godly principles. At church we have just finished Visionary Love, Dream Sex series based on Song of Solomon. It has brought out so many truths on the type of releationship that God intended for men and women to have. A man should pursue the woman. Women should be crowned with Love by a man, and Men should be crowned with Respect by a woman. I have learned to not compromise my standards or settle for anything less than what I deserve. I am now more than ever determined to wait for the love God has in store for me. It breaks my heart to hear friends and other girls who are so desperate to fill the void and are longing to get married. That is what we ALL want, but wouldn't you rather be patient and wait for the RIGHT relationship than to settle for less than the best and end up in a relationship filled with anger and regret down the road?!
Since January I have felt a conviction in my heart, that now is the time that God is pruning me and molding me into the person that He wants me to be. A guy in my life during this process would hinder this growth, not help it. I listen to others talk about playing games with guys and being a challenge or a girl being the pursuer (all roles I have played in the past) and I truly believe that if we are seeking Him, God is going to bring us the relationship and it will be EASY- no games, no gimmicks, just true love.
I have learned a lot about patience and truly know how wonderful my relationship with my husband is GOING to be. No ifs or maybes, the only unknown that God will reveal in his own time is who and when. Isn't it worth it to be patient for another 1- 5 years and hold out for the best?