Change in a Moment

From Pastor Furtick's blog today....
Significant change takes time. But it’s often ignited in a moment. Don’t underestimate the uniqueness of your moment. Make it matter.

How powerful these words are. I am sitting here in a moment of discouragement based on someone else's perception of truth turned into lies about me. I am wondering why I care... I have prayed countless times and have thought I have given the situation over to God but if I am still dealing with it, I obviously haven't.

But on to the big picture... How many things do I do in a given week that possibly sparks change in someone's life? Isn't that what I should focus most of my energy on? That is what God intends us to do. Why even waste my time worrying about things that do not have a significant impact? I am challenging myself with this and hoping that eventually the BIG change will take place in my heart. Each of us have unique moments every day, every week, millions every year- do we make the most of them and ignite change in others, or do we let these moments just pass us by?
I am challenging myself with this and hoping that eventually the BIG change will take place in my heart. Until then I am just tyring to make it day by day with a focus on those around me.

Listening to.....

Undivided here's my heart it's yours
It's Yours
Undivided take my life, I am yours
I am yours
This is the Time
This is the Hour
So I make my stand, theres no turning back
Jesus you're All that I Want
You're all that I want
All that hinders I cast aside

Isn't it Ironic...?!

It's quite ironic how in the last post I made such a big deal about sharing my birthday... guess it's time for me to learn to celebrate on my own. I will spare you the much un-necessary drama associated.
In light of the current drama, I thought I would focus on the good things. Let Thankful Thursday ensue....

• The beautiful fall weather!
• Smiling little ones... whether it is my kiddies in Quest or my coworker's children, it is always a blessing to spend part of my day with a little one.
• My amazing middle school girls, they make me laugh!
• A few best friends
• MY own 27TH BIRTHDAY next Wednesday!
• My new roomate Rachel that is moving in today! I am so excited to get to know her better and have someone to share my home with :)
• People who constantly see the potential in me to do amazing things!
• That I am a part of one of the greatest movement's of God at Elevation!
• Pumpkin carving on Monday at Meredith's!
• How it still amazes me when I give my problems over to God how easily my worries disappear!

I think I could sit here and come up with many more "thankyous" but I will save the rest for next Thursday!!

October... the best month for Birthdays!!

Every year I have been so excited when the month of October rolls around. Everyone loves the crisp weather, the color changing leaves, football games, and pumpkins.... but my birthday is in October. 3 Days before Halloween, no less. Which meant growing up I always had to have a Halloween birthday. Here I am less than a week away and I haven't even thought about my special day.
This year I am completely caught off guard by the beauty that God has shown me! I have spent more time outdoors breathing in the crisp air and the glorious nature. I have spent time at the farmer's market, picked out a pumpkin, and even plan on carving it next week. It's amazing how much more I enjoy these little pleasures. Now don't get me wrong, my birthday is a special day. I am so blessed to share my special day with two amazing friends. My best friend in college, Amity, and I were able to share many milestone birthdays together. She is exactly one year younger than me so I got to relive the beloved 21st birthday twice! After graduating and not seeing Am as much anymore (sad)... my birthday was once again shared with a new best friend. I met Sarah 5 years ago when I started working at Modern, in fact we started on the same day, we have the same birthday, and she was the only phenomenal roomate that I have ever had. With Sarah we embarked on annual trips to New York City to celebrate. (for the past 2 years anyways) If you have never shared your birthday with a best friend, I recommend searching for one! I guess it is kind of like a secret pact... October 29th birthdays.
This year I will be spending my birthday...
1- at Modern getting our newest location at Metropolitan prepared to open!
2- at Panera with 11 of my favorite middle school small groupers!
Two completely exciting things that I am blessed to be a part of. I'm sure the family birthday dinner and a few nights with friends will also be included but for now I am content with these plans!

Do I really want to blog?

I got excited for about 2 days... hence my previous post and thought I was going to be an avid blogger, posting my thoughts for the world to see. Then I had second thoughts and decided I would keep the thoughts and desires of my heart under lock and key in my journal. Well now I'm back- we'll see how long it lasts this time!
Something that I have witnessed in a lot of my single friends' lives lately, is the loneliness and aching for a man to fill this void. In college I dated the man that at the time I thought I would marry. Well had I only dug deeper into my heart I would have realized that we were not right for each other. I loved him, but I know now that it was not true love and it was not loved based on Godly principles. After breaking up with him I went through various stages to find happiness. I learned a lot about myself, learned to be independent again, and my journey brought me back to a life to live to honor A lot of my friends have gotten married in the past few years and I just hope and pray that their marriages is based on strong fundamentals and godly principles. At church we have just finished Visionary Love, Dream Sex series based on Song of Solomon. It has brought out so many truths on the type of releationship that God intended for men and women to have. A man should pursue the woman. Women should be crowned with Love by a man, and Men should be crowned with Respect by a woman. I have learned to not compromise my standards or settle for anything less than what I deserve. I am now more than ever determined to wait for the love God has in store for me. It breaks my heart to hear friends and other girls who are so desperate to fill the void and are longing to get married. That is what we ALL want, but wouldn't you rather be patient and wait for the RIGHT relationship than to settle for less than the best and end up in a relationship filled with anger and regret down the road?!
Since January I have felt a conviction in my heart, that now is the time that God is pruning me and molding me into the person that He wants me to be. A guy in my life during this process would hinder this growth, not help it. I listen to others talk about playing games with guys and being a challenge or a girl being the pursuer (all roles I have played in the past) and I truly believe that if we are seeking Him, God is going to bring us the relationship and it will be EASY- no games, no gimmicks, just true love.
I have learned a lot about patience and truly know how wonderful my relationship with my husband is GOING to be. No ifs or maybes, the only unknown that God will reveal in his own time is who and when. Isn't it worth it to be patient for another 1- 5 years and hold out for the best?